User blog:NyanGirToastNinjaShadow/IGNORE

I'm sorry, but I can't handle much of it anymore. I might not come back very much (or at all), but. . . I have important family-like things to worry about. My parents are worried about me because I've attempted suicide and self-harm, and my dad had to remove everything in my room that I could possibly kill myself with. I might actually be locked up in a mental hospital! I honestly feel. . . Just. . . I can't describe it. It's just I've been having thoughts of suicide and self-harm, and I can't do anything about it. If I'm gone for a while, I either forgot, I'm sick, I have no access to internet, or I'm locked up in a mental hospital. I'm dead serious. My parents and even my doctors say that if this comes up again I'll have to be put in a mental hospital under surveillance. I can only imagine how creepy that would be. ..

I may seem like a Happy-Go-Lucky type, but really, I only act like that to keep others from worrying about me. The last thing I want is for someone to feel like it's their fault. 'Cuz it's not. I'm honestly in a really bad time here. The worst thing is: NOBODY UNDERSTANDS. I wish I was the kind of person I pretend to be. ..

I really do not wish to say anything else, so. ..

Goodbye.

♪ oh somewhere deep inside of these bones An emptiness Began to grow There's something out there Far from my home A longing that I've never known...♪

EDIT: ZF, what did I do? Look, I'm a troubled kid with a suicidal attitude. WHAT DO YOU WANT ME TO DO??? I TRY TO BE A GOOD PERSON, AND I'M JUST NOT EVER ACCEPTED! IT'S LIKE THE WHOLE WORLD IS AGAINST ME! . . . I have nothing left to say. Everything that I want to say would be highly offensive, and I hate being rude in these kinds of situations.